Working Through It

I pulled several prompts so some ideas could simmer on the back burner, and guess what? I still got stuck. I know, I’m doing a lot right now between fighting the exhaustion still, training a temp, and dealing with the terrible twos. Regardless, the writing is still there. The stuck wasn’t laziness, it was in indication something was wrong.

So I decided to let the idea-in-progress sit on the back burner and I’d proceed with another idea for now. I went with a premise I came up with on my own and was pretty charged up about it on the way home from work. I narrated parts of the story to msyelf on the drive, and it’s the one I want to write next. Then as I’m driving home, trying to remember the bits of dialogue I entertained my steering wheel with, I realized what was wrong with the other story idea.

I had actually combined two of the prompts I pulled and deep down, I think my brain knew that and was struggling to seperate them. Well, forget that. Now that I know what I did, I like it! And I’m going to work with it more as soon as I’m done my current piece. I wrote about 400 words this evening, and can probably finish it off tomorrow.

If only I could have two more hours in my day. Oh, well.

Short Story: Bound

I wrote my first story this month about a mother’s love for her lost child, and now I’ve written this one about a father trying not to lose his daughter. Somehow the only way to save her IS to lose her. Being a mom has sure changed the way I think, the way I write. My characters tend to be older, with more serious problems, and serious solutions that hurt as much as they help. So long as I never have to experience what my characters do, I think I can live with that.

Short Story: Sunguard

Ashelle is hallucinating, and doesn’t know what’s real anymore. But her duties as a Sunguard do not end simply because of her illness.

I think this story has an interesting twist. After watching all the Star Trek and Stargate episodes where we the explorers do something terrible (accidentally of course) to the natives of some friendly and unsuspecting planet, I wrote a story such a thing from the point of view of the poor natives who have been damned. But you don’t get this to the end. I hope it delivers this at the end, but I have a feeling the first draft is very rough. I’ll have to work on the delivery in the edit.

Short Story: Anthony

It needs renaming, possibly, but I don’t know what is suitable at the moment. I finshed it on Mother’s Day. The protagonist is a mother who lost her five year old son to a kidnapper, but who now appears to her in ghost form to send her on a mission to save children. She keeps hoping he’ll send her to his body or to his killer, but that isn’t Anthony’s mission.

This one holds some speical meaning for me. While the situation thankfully resembles nothing in my life aside from motherhood, it has granted me freedom from the nightmares I’ve been having. They are pregnancy induced, I remember this kind of vivid dream from my last pregnancy. Though, last time they were about something happening to my cats, and this time, they are always about something happening to my daughter and husband. Writing the story has tied my brain up with Anthony and his mom, and spared me the nightmares of my daughter’s disasters. As for my husband, I think his place in the dreams were only because he would have protected our daughter, had he been able.

Amazing what writing can do!

Working Away

So it’s not recordbreaking progress, but it is progress. I pulled two prompts for the challenge, and am close to finishing one (“Anthony”), and working out the ending for another (“Sunguard”). I also am eager to finish “Once A Thief”, which is also from a prompt, but one I pulled two months ago. My plan is to use it for my 5th story for the challenge, which allows for my own source of inspriation. The news sparked an idea for a SF short story which I’m affectionally thinking of as “Broccoli” if only for the cute way my daughter says it. I’m writing over my lunch breaks a little bit, and writing on paper in the evenings until we get a nasty computer situation worked out.

The point here is that I *am* writing. Hopefully this weekend, I can bring something to completion. 🙂

Old Habits, Inner Selves

Interesting that the short story I’ve chosen to work on, is about the very thing I’m having issues with. We are who we are, and for me that’s being a writer. I can’t change that, nor do I wish to. However old ways, distractions, life, tend to block my path. While my distractions tend to be family related and therefore positive events in my life, it isn’t so for my poor little thief who wants to change, but cannot.

January, February, and March were mostly nonexistent in terms of my writing. I signed up for the 2YN class that Zette offered once again on www.fmwriters.com. But since I have some distractions coming up in the future that will prevent me from finishing the class, I’m choosing to withdraw. I’m keeping my notes and will write it another time, but seriously, writing a novel about a mom searching for kidnapped infant is not a good thing to write while the writer is pregnant.

I realize, too, that my one rule for writing “Finish what you start” has fallen by the wayside. I have one novel that I started but could not finish (Shadow of Blood), and I started building another novel (Winter Warrior) though I did not start the writing. I’ve also quit editing Forgotten Star after overediting and receiving a right-on crit that freaked me out. I view this with a positive attitude since it proves that my desire to write is still strong. Unfortunately, I need to re-discipline and get these projects under control.

I think to finish Shadow of Blood, I need to revamp several chapters in the beginning, and rewrite/replan with the intention of which character takes precedence. That darkness of the story, and the confusion between two main characters took the focus off track. I am NOT ready to do this now, but it will be my first step when I am ready to work on novels again.

For now, it’ll be short stories. I need to get this one written, and hopefully edited, then I’m going to hit the May Story-A-Day challenge again. I need to start somewhere.

Consistency, 2008, and January Goals

I’ve been “seriously” writing since 1998, with seriously meaning intent to edit and publish. When I lived alone, I wrote a lot. When I married my husband and we lived in our little condo, I wrote a lot. When we grew our family into three, my writing become sporadic. Instead of writing being my outlet, it become a chore. Whenever stress levels rose, I avoided the writing, despite my love for it. When I needed an outlet, I turned toward other hobbies. Writing found its way onto the back burner.

In 2007, I wrote from May until mid July with an obsession. I wrote 10 short stories, edited 4 of them (twice each), started a novel edit, and outlined/researched a new novel idea. Then I burnt out.

I have to choose: (1) downgrade my writing to a hobby; this way I don’t have to stress when the writing doesn’t come, or I’m stressed out, or I’d rather read or play that video game; (2) focus on a method to get the writing done without stressing.

Since my muse is obsessed with me (she’s awfully demanding), option 1 is never going to fly. Trying it will only land me into a depression of ‘why can’t I do this?’ which is fruitless and dangerous. I have too much positive in my life to spend my time being depressed. Option 2 seems like a good idea, if I can pull it off. To do that, there are a few key items I need to consider.

First, I have to stop overplanning. Each hiatus from writing has a pattern: obsessive and productive writing over a short period of time; planning oodles of writing to be completed over the next twelve months; joining critque circles beyond my ability (in producing critiques, not the writing ability); freaking out over the number of critiques and edits that must be done; and then the dreaded avoidance of writing.

Second, I need to start enjoying the writing. I love novels, but they are a huge committment in time and energy and brain power. Short stories have come a long way for me. I’ve figured out how to write them and enjoy writing them. The edits are still tough, but the writing is usually lots of fun. More importantly, the time committment to editing a short story is more manageable than the time required for a novel edit.

Third, I need a *reasonable* plan. Small goals in the short term. So I planned out January.

Implementation: Now. Let’s look at 2007 really quick, and then move on!

2007 Writing Accomplishments
* 10 Short Stories Written (Apotheosis; The Lonely Orchard; The Knot; Storm Song; The Crossing; Knights of the Scarlet Rose; Kalila’s Veil; Treischan Strength; The Dragon’s Bard; Immenence)
* 4 Short Stories Edited (The Crossing; Treischan Strength; The Dragon’s Bard; The Lonely Orchard)
* 1 Novel Prepped: Researched and outlined (Winter Warrior)

2008 Writing Goals
* Consistency: writing should continue through each month of the year. Breaks for sickness/family issues and good stuff are acceptable, but one thing needs to be done each month.

January Goals
* Short Story Writing – 2
* Short Story Editing – 2

Chaos

My life is chaos, and an update (as well as writing) is sorely overdue. These, and my monthly achievements/goals will be forthcoming…

Bad News: my web site, hosted by Jatol, is gone gone gone. So it’s back to square one on the web site issue.

Good News: my artist friend has completed her art (originally inteded for my web page) so for now, I’ve posted the image on here. She’s an amazing artist. See for yourself.

8/26 Update

It’s been a busy past few weeks, with very little writing completed. I’m working on some crits and some worldbuilding, and the edit is brewing on the back burner for the moment. The little one has changed sleeping schedule, and so I’ve had to adjust my writing time and focus. I think I have a handle on what I need to do now — which includes scaling back some of my writing goals. Someone reminded me that I have a full time job, a house and a family. While I do better when I can obsess over my writing throughout the day, I need balance so that everything works, so that when I can write full time, the family will still be here…

8/15 Update

Update, no not much progress…

Work/family has required more of my time and energy this week, so the writing is slow at the moment. However, I did have a brainstorm on how to edit chapter two. I need to add the full argument, but I need a scene before that, showing how compassionate Korin can be, to round him out a bit. Without knowing that, his anger is going to get on anyone’s nerves, mine included.

8/13 Progress

It’s been quiet here; the day job has required more of me, mentally and physically, so there was an adjustment for my brain to go through. I’m back at it, in baby steps, and by this weekend hopefully I’ll be up to my usual progress.

* Crit: done, finally. It was a good story, and I really wanted to make sure my comments made sense.

8/5 Progress

Dealing with some sickness, but made a little progress:

* WW – researched metal working for some critical components of my Winterstorm city of Storm Hold. Felt like I was back in school in some combination of science and history class.

* Crits – still working on that one crit, just having a hard time focusing. (Bad cold, go away!)

8/3 & 8/4 Progress: Maps!

Winter Warrior: the physical condition of the world map is mostly complete; started a pull-out for Winterstorm and am working out cultural/government/commerce details, including some subplots that tie into the main plot.

It’s all encompassing, so I’ve ignored my other writing goals for the week.

8/2 Progress

Forgotten Star: made some decisions about Korin and his role, and will be making some subtle changes. (However I really need to get working on chapter 2 already.)

Winter Warrior: worldbuilding went really well. The extensive mapping has led me to nation relations issues (yay conflict) as well as some history. I’ve planned the species that habitat each nation with the intent of not filling the world up with humans who rule over everyone else, and I think I’ve done it. Now, for the nitty gritty of each nation and their people who have to appear in this novel.

I also wrote the first line for WW, giving my MC a voice, but strangely it was in the first person. I don’t know if I really want to write an entire novel in first person. So, that’s something else I have to decide in the next few weeks. The line:

No matter what the healers claim, some wounds do not fade with time–they fester. Yet despite knowing this, I step once more into the arena, very much like the one that destroyed my life.

8/1 Progress

Winter Warrior: Worldbuilding via Mapping. I now have five nations in my world and basic geography that’ll affect their cultures/economies. The world is called “Roka”, meaning ‘rock’.

July Writing Update / August Goals

July Writing Accomplished:

* Forgotten Star: New Chapters – 1
* Forgotten Star: Edit Chapters – 1
* The Dragon’s Bard: Short Story Edited
* The Lonely Orchard: Short Story Edited
* Winter Warrior Worldbuilding – casual
* Critiques – 1

Not too bad considering one week I was off on vacation and I had computer problems the following week.

August Goals:
* Forgotten Star: Edit 4 Chapters
* Critiques: 8
* Winter Warrior: Worldbuilding in four phases:
–characters
–races & culture
–maps & drawings
–outline
The intent here is to be ready to start the first draft by the end of August

7/27 – 7/28 No Progress

Life took over for a few days, took a break. Unfortunately, I didn’t accomplish any of my goals for the week but lots of fun was had. [1 birthday, 1 anniversary, 1 new neice]

7/26 Progress

MS Word file has been fixed, thanks to some help. (waves at Zette). Reworked some formatting in chapters one and two, and adjusted headers. Started on Mar’s crit of “Innocents”. One more night should do it.

7/25 Progress

Forgotten Star: realized chapter 2 was off, because I started it at the end of an argument between Korin and his father. I’m going to add the argument, I think that’ll show their issues better than Korin’s running off and sulking (even though he’s right).

MS Word: still stinky. Managed to convert the unstable document to a .txt, and then break it up into three .doc files. Now I’ve got to reformat 560 pages of text, including line breaks and indentations that were lost in the original document. At least the haunted page breaks disappeared.

Whispers (the collaboration/for fun project): added to a scene my partner wrote. Wanted to work on the next scene, but I had to resolve the Word issues.

7/24 Progress

Worked on the web page a bit, getting closer to my desired content.

Analyzing Chapter 2 of FS, something is missing, but I don’t yet know what. I’m introducing Korin and his story question, but it doesn’t feel like a complete scene. I need something more compelling? We’ll see. I’ll reread it one more time tonight and see what hits me.

7/23 Progress

Started the crit, with markups in the text.

Read Forgotten Star Ch 2, and started marking up where changes need to be made.

Dealing with some technical issues with MS Word, too… Stinky.

7/22 Progress & Vacation

Vacation: read some short stories, and came up with a few ideas for Winter Warrior.

7/22: Reviewed my July writing goals and came up with a plan for this week. Selected a story to crit.

7/14 – 7/21 Absence

Vacation prep, and departure for sunnier climes will leave me out of contact, and off writing during this time. I’m taking along some small projects to work on, should the desire hit me, but it’s supposed to be a vacation, so no pressure.

7/13 Progress

Forgotten Star: reviewed the layout of the next 3 chapters and rearanged a few things. Made some edit notes as well. I’m taking the chapters up to bed with me for redlining edits. The rest of my energies were spent on trip preperation.

7/12 Progress

Whispers (fun project, not on goals list): opening written, shared with partner.

Forgotten Star: (1) Chapter 1 Scene 2 edited at 888 words. (2) Revamped chapter organization; scene 3 has been moved to the start of chapter 3, therefore (3) Chapter 1 edit is complete (and posted to SG for crit).

7/11 Progress

Forgotten Star — Chapter 1, Scene 1: 1213 words edited (7 pages). Scene complete. Venian is more frightening now. [1/3 scenes]

7/10 Progress

TLO received another quick eidt/skim over lunch, and I fixed a few things that were nagging me overnight. It’s in the crit queue now.

7/09 Progress

I focued on The Lonely Orchard tonight, and finished the first pass edit, and I have to say it was a thorough edit. If I missed anything, I should be able to catch it with a casual readover tomorrow.

Neglected Forgotten Star to get the short done, but now I’ll be able to focus on FS entirely tomorrow.

7/08 Progress

I am planning on using this blog to mark my daily progress. Part of the reasoning is to keep myself on track. I promised myself I would not take a full year to get through an edit, as the previous versions required. I won’t have the luxury in the future, and I shouldn’t take it now. My goal is 6 – 9 months, so that’ll put me December – March for finishing this. I also need to maintain my other writing projects while keeping up with this novel edit, so I need to remind myself of those items as well. Here goes.

Today’s Progress:

The Lonely Orchard: 2 pages edited, which includes a stronger opening scene. (2/12 pages)

Forgotten Star: Chapter 1 (the recently written chapter “A”) red-lined for edit prep. Consists of three scenes to be edited electronically this week.

Update 7/8

Not too much done these past few days. I accomplished my goals for the week early, and I think my brain took a break. I picked up a book I read some time ago and skimmed over it again, as I tend to do with writing books. “Handbook of Short Story Writing, Volume II”, and sure enough, some concepts hit home. Two specific stories were in mind when I read this, and I confirmed for myself that I need to add the extra scene to the start of Dragon’s Bard, and just how I needed to fix the opening to The Lonely Orchard.

Edit prep and planning for the novel has gone as far as it can without turning into procrastination: the Forgotten Star edit begins today.