I Want To Do It All

This is a feeling that’s followed me my entire life. I remember in high school signing up for too many extra curriculr and cutting back, then doing the same thing, and then taking on college classes.  I do it in my adult life too, and it revolves around being a mom and a person with a full personal agenda. Lots of people do it, right?

I’ve decided it’s okay to WANT to do it all. I just need to rein that in. Choose a primary and a secondary goal, and forge ahead.

This week, in testing out my new strategy: I’m going to make the novel my primary focus, and I’ve selected a short story (flash) to revise for my secondary goal. I’ve used this in planning my fitness for the week as well. The cardio is my primary focus – getting up at 5 to either bike or ride (depending on the weather, but the intention is to alternate the activity from day to day), and the secondary will be a brief dumb bell workout in the evening.

This brings me back to my focus word for the year: INTENSITY. I’ve intensely pushed for my writing, but struggled with too many choices, too many obstacles, too many other priorities.  Well, it’s June. This is my half-year check, and the intensity has not obeyed my utmost intentions. This primary/secondary idea should fix that. A person cannot be intense about something if they’re dividing up their time and energy into too many projects.

This is me, reinventing myself. Nice to meet you.